On the way back, we drove through Horton, Muscotah, Larkenburg
and one other small town. These places
used to have several businesses on their main streets, now the only thing left
is a post office. Times have changed for
the little town in this area. I guess
they are victims of migration to the big city, the economy and Wal Mart. They
will never recover!
Although they rate only a passing thought for most of us,
one can only be amazed at how our reservation had been transformed. Ours, like so many other reservations were
poverty-stricken. Who would have thought we would have a green plush golf
course, a big casino and hotel, black-top roads, and jobs. Yet with this new wealth, there is political
unrest. A case in point: Look at how I reacted to voting in our
run-off election this coming Saturday.
I
laid out my ballot. I looked at it long
and hard, my hands kinda shook, sweat broke out on my forehead, a tear
developed but never quite went over the proverbial high Indian cheekbone, then
I called the local holy men to smoke my ballot but they were still asleep so I
said hell I will wait till my nerves calm down. That night while sitting on the
front steps,, one candidate, T. Wabnum drove by my house and honked at me, so I
will probably vote for him because he acknowledged my humble presence in this
life, plus he publicly stated he was
going to treat us Indians right. I hope he continues to wave and honk after
election day. Okay, that’s one down. I
rarely see the other candidates. They don’t look at me or talk to me. I just
don’t know. I may have to pow wow with the holy men here for guidance. I will
keep you updated, and while the actual election is still a few days away- the
fate of our fine tribe hangs in the balance!
But somewhere in all of that, I found the courage to do it and the
voting dilemma is finally over: I filled out that paper and only I will know if
I made a mistake, but we have such low expectations anyway that we shouldn't be
disappointed at all. Sorry tribe, after Saturday: forever hold your peace! (you
can't see it but tears did make it over that proverbial high cheekbone).
Today
had my mother lived, it would have been her birthday. We would have had a big meal, had cake and
bought her a gift for being the best mother possible. It ain’t going to happen, but it would have
been great to have that meal with her.
It would have been better yet to learn a few more Indian words from her.
We had to move on and learn to live without her loving and caring ways – such is
life.
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